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[25 Aug 2004|05:29pm]




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I took a bunch of quiz thingys.. [19 Aug 2004|11:30pm]
Your love is... by ChibiMarronchan
Your name is...
Your kiss is...mysterious
Your hugs are...warm
Your eyes...sparkle like the stars
Your touch is...the only thing I desire
Your smell is...refreshing
Your smile is...encouraging
Your love is...eternal
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Would anyone want to bang you? by phobia
Favorite Food:
Wants to Bang you:
This many times:233
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What Makes You Sexy?
by eva71
Sexy Body Part IsYour Nose
Special Talents AreStalking Your Prey
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What stupid celebrity are you destined to kill? by daydreamer8852
You killed
With a
OnMay 14, 2016
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Get to know the REAL you by crash_and_burn
Your Name
You Are A:Teeny-Bopper
Your Favorite Band/SongPink Floyd - Bike
You Like To Read:Horror books
You Firmly Believe In:God
Everyone Thinks You Are:A cheap bastard
You Were Conceived:In the mall
You Will Marry:Britney Spears
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Your Stripper Info by radioface
first name
Stripper Name:Skipper
Specialty:you look HOT, that's enough!
Customers say:"Can I have your number?"
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I really liked that one

Your Sexual Profile (you sexual deviant you...)
by sparkledee
Your Secret Kink ThingYou like dead people. A lot.
Your Sexual StrengthHow hot you look in lingerie.
Your Sexual WeaknessScreamers freak you out...
Your Likely STDGenital Herpes
How Many Partners in Crime?2
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Which Band Should You Be In?
by couplandesque
Your Name
Band NameStereophonics
TrademarkExtreme Sassiness
Love InterestThe Guitarist
Quiz created with MemeGen!

Your Suicide.. by Konstantine
Your Name/Username
Favorite Number?
Favorite Color?
How will you commit suicide?You will stab a knife through your heart
How many tries will it take?16
When will you commit suicide?November 20, 2028
What will your suicide note say?Unrequited love can kill
Quiz created with MemeGen!
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Funny [19 Aug 2004|06:46pm]
[ mood | thirsty ]

XDieDieDollieX [6:36 PM]: Hi
Prh7887 [6:36 PM]: hi
XDieDieDollieX [6:36 PM]: Uh...whats up?
Prh7887 [6:37 PM]: nothing
XDieDieDollieX [6:37 PM]: Cool how did you get on my buddie list?
Prh7887 [6:38 PM]: i dont know
XDieDieDollieX [6:38 PM]: Uh...a/s/l if you dont mind..
Prh7887 [6:38 PM]: 72/?/hell
XDieDieDollieX [6:39 PM]: same
XDieDieDollieX [6:39 PM]: Like Mudvayne?
Prh7887 [6:39 PM]: thought so
Prh7887 [6:39 PM]: yeah
XDieDieDollieX [6:39 PM]: We will get along fine..
XDieDieDollieX [6:40 PM]: name?
Prh7887 [6:40 PM]: you can call me ginger
Prh7887 [6:40 PM]: you will be samantha
XDieDieDollieX [6:41 PM]: How are you to day Gigner?
Prh7887 [6:41 PM]: a bit tired. i was thinking about taking an afternoon nap
XDieDieDollieX [6:42 PM]: Whats the point you will still be wasting your life away by sleeping...you also will be wasting it away by being awake....Sad sad sad...
Prh7887 [6:43 PM]: thats a little to negative for me
XDieDieDollieX [6:43 PM]: :) Badass
XDieDieDollieX [6:43 PM]: You dont agree woo! I dont sleep....Sleep is bad...
Prh7887 [6:43 PM]: im only into nilism when i read
XDieDieDollieX [6:44 PM]: Oh? What do you read?
Prh7887 [6:44 PM]: right now, "diary of a nobody". i dont remember the author, my friend just gave me the book
Prh7887 [6:44 PM]: i like a lot of tim o brian and hemingway
XDieDieDollieX [6:45 PM]: Hmm read Baby-Be-Bop very goooooood book...
XDieDieDollieX [6:46 PM]: I am reading White Oleander...The book is much darker then the Movie...
Prh7887 [6:47 PM]: never saw the movie
XDieDieDollieX [6:47 PM]: I stick with the books-Movies lie...
Prh7887 [6:48 PM]: after this i should read an oscar wylde and then....maybe house of leaves?
XDieDieDollieX [6:48 PM]: Whatever makes you happy muffin

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Anyways.... [19 Aug 2004|05:41am]
[ mood | accomplished ]

ARG! These are the only people I like! Read after names:


  • Otto (My boyfriend)
  • Kevin
  • Tony
  • Jake
  • Diana
  • Summer
  • Ericka
  • Alaya
  • and like four other people...

God this state pisses me off I cant wait to move!I had to set up my dancing web site right here So I am like iight I got it all set up and I am ready to start something els when fucking half the people I know came to me and were like "What The Fuck Happend To You?" Okay ONE. I have been dancing for a really long time and TWO what the fuck do you care?! You didnt care before when I was/am singing the only time you care is when I take a step like with my band all my "friends" not the ones that are listed and like four other people but all my other "FRIENDS" you all come down on me when something good happens.I fucking am on my way to becoming one of Fls top dancers and you guys just put me down "You are a fake" "You change your so fake" Look if I am such a fucking fake why do you come to me when you need something. Well here take this I DONT FUCKING CARE. If you cant take me for being better then you then fuck off. Dont try to bring me down cause I am taking steps forward and you guys are all standing there trying to keep young. It going to happen the days of us hanging out at the mall movies and such are gone we are all going to be 18 soon fuck out lifes will be set then I am setting out a small plan for me to live on..Its not a plan and I know I might fall but I will have to pick my self up. I know I will not make one of my Goals but If dancing dosnt work out then I got singing if singing dosnt work out I am going to Med school if med school will not work out then I will write.Okay you guy thinking that it will be planed out for you will not work.So here. If you cant grow up and take me and your own life for what it is then dont talk to me.Cause I will not let you guys bring me down.


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Three weeks later... [17 Aug 2004|09:17pm]
[ mood | thirsty ]

LMFAO my first day back into school I get into a fight ROTFL!! I walked in and this chick comes up and was like "What the fuck you aint suppost to be here" so I pushed her aside and walked my my way...So 3ed block I was called up to the front building and there I see my old dancing/singing coach Miss.C standing there and I was like "Holy shit" Went up to her and hugged her and said "Omg what are you doing here?!" Well I guess FL is doing this huge school star show where I guess we will be going to schools and doing this huge drug-free show they wanna see if kids got what it takes before they do it so Miss.C told one of the board members too look up my name and see what school I was in that I would be awsome to do it.So here I am talking to her and she says "Sing." and I was like "huh? woha wait I cant I'm in school" she looked at me and said "When did that stop you?" So she pulled out the words to "My heart will go on" and she said "Sing" so I sung and by this time half of the staff was out there and theres a part in the song where she just hits it "YOUR HERE THERES NOTHING I FEAR..." and so on she said "Okay well I'll be getting back to you on this" So I might be coming to a school near you...LMFAO But anyways I bet yall wanna know about this here fight this chick was all sorts of bent got into a fight with me on the bus ramp and I hit her with my friends board...shes not hurt that bad..I sware..and thats about it...I got three weeks...Not much at all...one week is out and the other two are inschool..I was kicked out last year from school so this chick didnt want me back so I'm like "Look I fucking own this school no one fucking takes shit like I do!" So my Ego this becoming huge...So it was only a little fight nothing huge..But if CCPS asks me to do that singing thingy I'm not going too..I really dont wanna...So I'll check back in with yall later in life I think I might make a new journal :)


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[15 Aug 2004|08:51am]
My journal is now friends only.
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teen chats [12 Aug 2004|12:02am]
[ mood | chipper ]

Emhope91: false alarm
XDieDieDollieX: Lol I'v been trying all night
Metallicaone5: lolol
KAAB43: stph and steph= to good for me to talk to!
KAAB43: lol
AnB4587: 200
OnlineHost: Wendebpett82290 has left the room.
Krustytheklown85: chance kev is from a long time ago
OnlineHost: AnB4587 has left the room.
OnlineHost: PoolRulz8 has entered the room.
OnlineHost: Strawberrygood9 has left the room.
OnlineHost: Manslaughter94 has entered the room.
OnlineHost: ChocolettKisses has entered the room.
Drawmeasmile: Who is Kev?
Drawmeasmile: I should know him.
HersheyKissMe211: hey all guys. press 38 if u want to chat
Drawmeasmile: He should know me.
XDieDieDollieX: Kev!!! Can I love on you?
PoolRulz8: hey room
Emhope91: ::sits on couch all alone:::
DrPickles619: 38
WRG1012: hershey asl
Drawmeasmile: I am a great person.
Metallicaone5: love on me all u want
PoolRulz8: 38
HOST TEEN Mocha: XDieDieDollieX, to avoid further disruption, your chat has been suspended for 10 minutes. Please use this time to review Keyword: TOS, and Keyword: TEEN CHAT RULES
Metallicaone5: lol

I have new friends woooohooooo
I heart-Pouncer-Kev-Tony-Dan and Emma wooohoooo I am loved by ppl that dont live in the same area code as me!!!


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Bitch what did you just say? [10 Aug 2004|10:04pm]
[ mood | groggy ]

Have I ever told you how much I HATE FL AND WANT TO BURN IT AND THE PPL IN IT?!?! Sep for the ppl that are cool Other wize the rest can die!

I took my puppy out side to day and was playing with her and we have a gate around our yard so we take her out the 24-7 so I was like "Pixie I gotta pee so if you will hold on" well we got the nextdoor ppl and they suck ass they are Mexican now I am not in ANY WAY racist but these ppl are slobs and blare music and ther just really rude. RALLY RUDE. So they own 18 kids serious they have like 18 of them so I left Pixie out there cause I had to pee so I am coming out if the bathroom and I hear them laffing and screaming stuff so I was like "w/e" and then I heard my dog crying not any cry a painful cry so I run out side and they have my fucking puppy upside down holding her by her hindlegs so I screamed at them and went and got my puppy and I got the hose and sprayed them. Fucking teach them to mess with my puppy! So I am in side trying to get her to stop crying and like hiding in my neck and the crook of my arm I hear this lady talking then yelling about 3 min later BAMBAMBAMABAMABM on my door so I put Pixie in her pin and I went to the door and there was this short little thing screaming at me in Spanish so since know how to write Spanish but not like talk it I wrote down what they did. So she was like "Ce ce ce beoncha ke ponta" (I just made that up) I was about to slam the door in her face when she called me a white bitch so I turned and said "Bitch say what?" She smiled so I pushed her out side went to the other side of the house got the hose and got her soaked then she wanted to hit me and she did then I hit her a few times my sister pulled up and was like "LUCKY WTF BABYGURL GET OFF OF HER STOP IT" So she got this bitch but her mile long briad and told her to go home then she got me pushed me in side and asked what the hell was going on! So I told her so she went over there.....she did not go alone. The fucking cops took me to downtown naples and booked me! My mom had to bail! Lol none of my friends are going to know sept for the ones who read me live journal but it was fucking crazy. So I might get some CS time I dont fucking care teach her to come onto my year call me a white bitch then hit me!!!


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[10 Aug 2004|03:10am]
I am a

Which America Hating Minority Are You?

Take More Robert & Tim Quizzes

Watch Robert & Tim Cartoons

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could have lost my job... [10 Aug 2004|02:37am]
[ mood | blah ]

Well Otays I had a day to day it was fun. I kick Anths ass. I have been working at this Pizza place on Mondays wensdays and fridays and he came into work to day and was such an asshole snaped his fingers didnt leave me a tip and since it my job I could no wait on him so I had to. So when he left he left the table a mess and it was really gross so I asked my boss can I have my brake and he said yeah he could tell I was pissed so I walked out side and said "Yo, what the fuck was that allabout fuck nut?" He kept walking so I threw a rock at him he turned around and said " I cant fucking stand you Cunt" So I was like "hell naw you fucknut" and hit him hear is just some of the IM we had last night

linebackin101 [9:14 PM]: But susie what about what we had?? The football games you cheered me on let me be me please susie I love you and I cannot be without you I'll kick that other guys ass if I cant have you no one can I'll kill that guy before he can ask you to be his wife you dumbbitch I fucking love you
XDieDieDollieX [9:15 PM]: Are you a fucking dumbass? He didnt get on one knee yet with that shit you prick and if you fucking lay one finger on him not only will he kick your ass half of new york and naples will so back off fag cake. I know my man and your words will not fucking phase him. If anything it will make him more happy to kick your red neck ass you dickweed

I am super pissed this kid is crazy!


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muwhahahaha [10 Aug 2004|01:20am]
[ mood | annoyed ]


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Angel Charms... [08 Aug 2004|08:43pm]
[ mood | shocked ]

I went into tears today with my Mom. Her and I both broke down. She came in and woke me up told me it was five in the noon time. So I was like okay I'll go get into my bed cause I fell asleep in her room so I got up and I saw this little box in pink wraping and it had my name on it. So she was looking at me rom behind my back and had this smile on her face. So I picked it up and opened it. I saw a charm in here. My mom back when I was 7 got me Charm bracelet to was too big to fit me when I got out of the ward I was in so I set it in my little box well my mom got it fitted to fit me and got me this one its so cute so I went into tears and hugged her. She told me "Baby I love you so much and I am so sorry for this past years I'v been so mean" So I got my Bracelet back its really super sweet and I just feel like I'v gotten to know my mother better....Wow!


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[08 Aug 2004|10:06am]
[ mood | hungry ]

Its getting closer too boyfriends and I one year I am really happy.He is my only way out from life.He means the world to me and I cannot wait to be with him. I know he hates it where he is.I miss him so. He put the smile on my face and makes the sun shine brighter he makes my world lighter. I am so happy I am with him.I'v been up all night writing songs and poems its been awsome I'v been so depressed as of late that I just shut out all the people I wuv. So I got really pissed at my self and since I could not get ahold of my boyfriend at the time so I was like "goddamnit I fucking give up" went down the street to a friend got some Jack and walked back to my house and I was about to twist the cap then I saw my note book and the pen sitting on top of it. Twist the cap to the Jack or twist off the cap to the pen. So i took the pen it was hard too do but i did i gotta go

i love my babyboy


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I Am Slipping..... [08 Aug 2004|12:18am]
[ mood | blank ]

I am going under I feel it I dont like it. I am crying more. I am thinking about hurting things. I lost it a few noghts ago and tore up my house. I screamed and threw things I just cant take it anymore. I wonder if I just run away? Maybe my life will be better? I'll go to NYC thats it I am going to run away to NYC. Toodles yall I am going to the big city....

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I am fine... [07 Aug 2004|06:25am]
[ mood | curious ]

Just to let yall know that I am fine I will be okay so yeah w/e bye

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My last post... [05 Aug 2004|03:18am]
This is my death not to all of you,
I'm so sorry I had to do this.
You all have been such good friends to me.
I am done nothing but bring you down.
I'm so sorry.
Otto I love you so much babyboy
Diana you were sweet
Jake I am sorry I was not a good friend
Shauna I love you
Tom I'm so sorry too
Mommy, mommy i love you i'm sorry i was not perfect for you.I would have killed to be...i love you momma i love you
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I cant do it [05 Aug 2004|03:09am]
[ mood | blank ]

To night I got the worst call of my life. Snuggles has left us.I'm so sorry.I am going to give my puppy away I am so depressed about snuggles that I can deal with anything els.

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Jason and Otto [04 Aug 2004|02:30am]
[ mood | happy ]

It's been over a year now since Jason left my life by tragically taking his own life with a gunshot wound to the head.I have found my love who keeps my head held high day by day and he will keep it that way but Jason is/was/still is my bestfriend. It seems like years have passed yet time still moves slow for me without him. Jason was a wonderful, caring loving person. For those of you who weren't blessed enough to have known him he was my ex boyfriend, best friend . He was such a amazing person, although he acted all tough he really did have a heart so full of love for his family and friends. He loved his mother and sisters and only brother with all his heart and to this day his mother still tells me I was his true love and meant the world to him. He would have done anything for his friends and family which hurts me to know I couldn't do anything to stop him from his descison to end his life. I remember this one time I was really upset over something and was talking to him on the phone, crying about my friends calling me bad names and he started singing part of one of our songs "Follow me" by Uncle Kracker to cherr me up. "Follow me and everything is alright. I'll be the one to tuck you in at night and if wanna leave I can guarantee you won't find nobody else like me." He always knew what to say to make me feel better when in all actuality he didn't really need to say anything at all because one smile from him was worth millions to me. Jace had been in a bit of trouble with the law and I guess he saw no way out and felt that no one cared. He didn't do what he was blamed for and the law was working against him because I assume they wanted someone to blame.Jace couldn't live with being blamed for something he didn't do and didn't want to go back to jail for it. He told his friend that he was going to kill himself and his friend stayed with him all day. He left and asked me to stay with him so I did my mom called his house and bitch at me to come home so I told him not to do anything dumb and he said "Susie before you go do you want my dads gun?" and I said "No I trust you not to do anything like that Jace" Kissed him goodnight and left.4:36 PM I got the call that changed my life. This has been one of the toughest things I have ever had or will ever deal with. You think you know how it feels but losing the one person you know was your bestfriend and someone who meant everything to you is the worst feeling in the entire world. I cried to myself for weeks, Cried all day long, cried myself to sleep at night, woke up with tears in my eyes. The tears just kept coming in a neverending stream. With the help of my family, his family and my friends and my boyfriend (I love you so much baby this year has been magic) the pain has finally started to receed and I know that as days go by each day is a step to getting better and I know that he is still here with me in a sense and will never leave me yet he will help guide me along. It's funny because sometimes I can feel him here with me and I know that he is watching over me and showing his love to me in the only way he can now. I have moved on from Jace to my new boyfriend who I have been with for a year.I feel like sometimes I overwhelm my boyfriend with dumbshit.Sometimes I think that maybe the only reson I am with him is to fill this feeling of loss, but when his sweet voice tell me things I know I am not with him to replace this Jason I know I am with him cause he loves me and I love him more then I can express....Babyboy I love you thank you so much for showing me a new light.....Jason you will live forever in my heart thank you for showing me the light to Otto and keeping us safe and not being mad that I found a new lover

Otto I love you so much babyboy I fucking need you, I love you sweetie.


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P.S. [03 Aug 2004|02:19am]
[ mood | bitchy ]

I dont get "that way" over your girlfriend.

I get "this way" over dumb bitches who broke your heart then said they could not stand you and that they hated you to no end. Thats why I am pissed and you are not the only one getting this Jakecob all of my friends are cause no one fucking listens to me then comes crawling back wanting me to pick them up well fuck this shit I am out like a delf kids in musical chairs.
I have a boyfriend who needs me.

the other e.mail

wtf i never called u fat ghetto or ur boyfriend that word i dont kno ur b/f and i wouldnt call him that neway so u kno what w/e everybody wants me better how bout better off dead deal done u want it sweetheart u got it i dont talk shit about ppl i like jess aint got no ring and we arent even serious its been 4 days

hmmmmmmnot the way I remember it Hunny here here is the IM

SIMPLEPLAN159753: haha nyc u can be real
SIMPLEPLAN159753: realy stupid and full of niggers
XDieDieDollieX: Oh yes
XDieDieDollieX: Dont be hating on the black people
SIMPLEPLAN159753: o i furgotz ur b/f is one
SIMPLEPLAN159753: as well as ur mom
XDieDieDollieX: No my boyfriend is Domincan & if you got something to say about him tell it to his mother fuck'in face.

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[03 Aug 2004|02:13am]
[ mood | enraged ]

I'm writing this song to tell you that I'm sorry
Because I know you never thought that I'd be away so long
I know it's unfair to ask you to wait for me
When I don't have a real job and you're ready to move on

It's hard to keep my balance
When you look the other way
So I'm letting go with every breath I'm taking

So many reasons
I need something more to believe in
The time has come to turn and walk away
Through all these changes, mistakes
There was time now it's too late
there's nothing more that i could say to you

I'm writing this song to tell you that it's over
Your jealousy took you way too far this time
Another day comes I'm better off without you
So now i'll take a deep breath and get on with our lives



So what good is today
If there's not going to be a tomorrow
It's too much for me to take
I know I don't want to wait forever
Just remember
That life without us won't be the same


The years that we've been through
Were not meant to hurt you
It's felt so wrong for so long so now we can move on
As time helps the healing I can't help but feeling
That goodbye and thank you
The only words that I can say to you

i dont hate you if that happens to be whats on your mind i just need to seriously clear my head i really dont want the friendship we have to end over some stupid fight but i mean u have to understand that im not a backstabbing son of a bitch like i think i actually do care altho half the time it doesnt show i kno how u feel about me being with other girls cuz its the same way i feel when i read ur lj and see i love otto written in almost every entry its really hard to deal with for me i just really hope that u read at least this part of what im writing and didnt delete this and i really hope we can sort things out i dont want to be the suicidal druggie alcoholic i turned into last time i lost you


Thats the e.mail I just got from Jake.Maybe all of this should have came to mind when he wraped a nice ring around a girlfriend finger that broke his heart then said she hated him.hhhhhhmmmmmm.Really sweet.yeah so w/e.I dont know w t f to say to him nor do I want to say anything to him. He should have kept all of this in mind while he was calling me fat and ugly and getto and calling my boyfriend a "nigger" thats one thing you dont do so Jake. No. I aint coming back.

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